by Aileen Journey

I went to an Indigo Girls concert the other night. I remember hearing them for the first time in 1989 when I first came out. It brought me back to my early twenties. I was so ambitious back then. There were so many things I wanted in life and I felt like everything I wanted required huge amounts of effort. Everything seemed so incredibly difficult. I felt like I either had to jump tall buildings or fall and do nothing. I seemed to have no idea how to get where I wanted to go.

Now older and wiser, I’ve achieved just about everything I wanted. Looking back I realize that if I hadn’t seen the future as this huge rock that had to be lifted up hill, but instead was more like piling ring up small stones, I may have arrived at the same place without quite so much angst.

I guess the angst might be part of the deal, but if I could talk to the me that first started listening to the Indigo Girls twenty-something years ago, I would say, “just figure out your goals and start doing one tiny part of them at time…” Anybody can do almost if they do little bit at time over many years.